Anna Nicole Smith = Misery

Misery #1 Before the autopsy comes out we already know intuitively that she died from something other than natural causes. While our days are "numbered by the Lord," Job 14:5 it will assuredly come out that her death was due in part to her own actions. The saddest and most desperate action a human being can take.

Misery #2 She was not famous because of any productive or beneficial result she brought to humanity but because of people's curiosity with her bizarre and often sinful behavior.

Misery #3 She was so obviously a woman who "looked for love in all the wrong places." What she wanted was the love of God and the love of others, where she sought the fulfillment of that legitimate need was outside the boundaries of God's word and as a result even what she found only multiplied her misery. Choose to sin, choose to suffer.

Misery #4 Her appearances in smutty magazines and on television though publicly paraded as liberating and joy producing could only have added to her feelings of personal shame. She was not respected or esteemed, she was used and abused by a public that did not care for her soul, or act in her best interest. Increasingly she must have known this and the realization had to be excruciating.

Misery #5 By allowing herself to be the scandalous object of masculine focus, she made the fleeting nature of beauty her stake in the ground. The past few years she fought a very public battle with her weight in a losing attempt to hold on to her physical fame. Every month that passed tightened the noose of aging around her growing desperation.

Misery #6 Her questionable marriage to an immensely wealthy man in his late 80's and her financial windfall when he died before their second anniversary caused untold misery. His family battled her for inheritance she never truly posessed and could not enjoy. Her motives for this marriage were mocked and ridiculed though no one really knew her heart. (ISam. 16:7)

Misery #7 The suicide death of her son late last year must have wounded in a way that was deeper and more devastating than all of her suffering to that point. Everyone watching now ached for a woman whose misery only seemed to multiply

Misery #8 The joy of her daughter's birth was completely eclipsed by the two men who began a custody battle becuase each claimed to be the real father. Clearly she had slept with both of them in a proximity that caused the girl's father to be a disputable point. Were they fighting because each loved Anna Nicole and wanted a lifetime partnership with her to father their 'child?' No!, they were fighting because they wanted access to the massive fortune any parent of Anna Nicole's children would have.

Misery #9 Drug abuse, which is so common among those who desperatly seek a hiding place from the compounding consequences of many sinful choices, will prove to be the cause of her death. Did the drugs mask her misery, or did they multiply it even further. Did her escape bring relief or only heighten the misery of occasional soberness and accelerate her desire to return to her dark world of drug induced denial.

Misery #10 She died alone. Family that fought for her finances, friends that fed off her fame, fellows that used her when she was useable (i.e. hugh hefner) and refused her phone calles when she was fallling, all were absent when she stepped out of this world.

Gone before, she figured out her errors, gone before she was reconciled to the God who made her, gone to an eternity to review her errors and . . . God knows, All I know is that it makes me want to cry . . . tragic in a thousand ways. Reminds me of Marilyn Munroe. Yeah, that's right, let's keep glamorizng MM, then maybe we can create another Anna Nicole, Paris Hilton seems to be well on her way.